β€˜E’ Is For Erogenous….

Zones. Lol. I wanted to type that as part of the title, but it just didn’t feel right. πŸ™‚

I thought this was too funny not to include on this post. πŸ˜‚ We’re about to find out!

So this is one of the first things I saw while researching…..

I liked two things about this. One, it breaks down the word. I love words and their meanings. Two, the illustration is amusing to me lol. Although I’d say maybe just a bit untrue. πŸ˜‰

I feel as though some zones are painfully obvious here, as the picture demonstrates on both characters. However, I think some zones are less obvious. Two that stuck out to me that I found interesting are in the armpit area and behind the knee. Never would’ve even guessed those would’ve been erogenous zones! But after reading other sources, I saw it was a consistent thing. I’m wondering about those spots being played with while tied up….

I also found an article that went over many of these spots and I enjoyed reading it. You can read the full post here. I liked how they almost gave ideas how to stimulate these areas. For example, they talk about the under arm area, which is interesting to me. They suggest a light tickle from the inner arm running up to the armpit area and even reference the movie Dirty Dancing, which wasn’t something I picked up in the movie during that scene. I wonder now if that was part of it…. πŸ˜‰ I’m also curious if light slaps in those areas would also have an affect. I have this vision of being tied up with my arms more above my head, restrained with my Master running his fingertips along my arms and then every now and again giving a little slap. We’ll see, won’t we? πŸ˜‰

Another zone that I love being touched is my inner thigh. This is also mentioned in the above article and I couldn’t agree more. It’s the anticipation of being touched there that makes it such a turn on. It’s a huge teasing move. My Master did this not too long ago when we met for lunch and we sat in a booth together before we parted ways. Such an electric touch that makes me crave more and more from him….

I apologize for the shorter post today!! It’s been a very long week and I meant to have this done much earlier and I just wanted to get something posted lol. BUT, not to worry as I will be posting more regularly next week. πŸ™‚

Stay tuned!


Terrific Tuesday!

So it’s Tuesday! Why is that exciting?! It’s probably not lol. Although it is one day closer to seeing Him next week. Monday’s are usually our days together, so keep your fingers crossed that next week follows suit! πŸ˜‰

Saw this today and it made me smile and think about him:

Texting is quite dangerous while driving… πŸ˜‰ This has been something we’ve done quite a few times (road head, not texting lol!) and it’s honestly just as exciting each time. Stepping into his car after he’s been waiting on me, knowing he’s been stroking himself is an incredibly sexy sight. And then immediately getting my head pulled down into his lap, his already hard cock filling my mouth while his hand is on the back of my head. Then sucking and teasing him with my lips and tongue the whole drive back to his house is fantastic. Hearing him moan and saying how good it feels while my panties get wetter is just so thrilling! Most of the time I have trouble deciding if I want him to cum right then in my mouth or if I want him to wait so he can fuck me properly in the house…

We’ve talked before about maybe taking a longer drive while I give him head, but so far it’s just been driving from our meeting spot to his home. Not that that makes it any less exciting!! πŸ™‚

In some of my research in seeing if there were ways to make road head more exciting, I came across this sexy page. Some of the submitted stories are so hot!! I wouldn’t mind trying some of them with him one day…

We had to miss our Monday meeting yesterday, as he is out on vacation, but thoughts and memories of him brought me smiles throughout the day. πŸ™‚ I can’t wait to see him again!

Drop a comment if you’ve given or received road head before and want to share your thoughts! πŸ˜‰


Still Here…And With A New Experience!

Well, hello again anyone reading this. I feel like I disappeared for a little while there, so I apologize. Part of the reason I was absent was the feelings of discouragement I was having about this blog. It was reported as ‘mature’, which means on WordPress that you don’t get the option of having other users find your blog with the tags you assign to it. For me, that was how I was attracting most of my new readers, so my daily visitors dropped to zero for several consecutive days. It sucked because I was excited when I was having people visit the blog every day and it was some kind of inspiration for me to keep writing. I don’t know. Maybe that sounds stupid…

Anyways, things have been great with Him as far as I can tell. Still so happy every time we are together. I recently got a new job so our time together has lessened a bit, but this job is only temporary and then the next job I have lined up will have a fair amount of flexibility and I couldn’t be happier about that. I love being able to see Him more than once a week.

We went on a day date earlier this week to the museum, which was great. We wandered around a little bit and saw an IMAX movie. I truly do love how we can do things like that once in awhile. I hope He enjoys those kind of things as much as I do. I kind of asked him on this date, originally wanting it to be sort of a way to celebrate Valentine’s Day with him since it is our first one together. He isn’t really big into celebrating holidays like that, which is absolutely fine and in a way made it more special because then it means we just went on a date for us and not for a holiday. And even though he doesn’t care, he did still wish me a Happy Valentine’s Day yesterday. I don’t really celebrate the holiday either in my primary relationship, but to me there’s something about the first one with Him.

We have had a couple of meetings since my last post. One being at his second home in the mountains. He needed to make a trip there and invited me along, to which of course I said ‘yes’! When we got there and got inside, He came up to me and started kissing me and running His hands through my hair and pulling back. He knows how much I love that… Then we made our way to the couch where He started kissing me and sliding His hands into my panties, softly rubbing my clit. His fingers are like magic and feel amazing on me. But I hate not having my hands and mouth on Him so I was on my knees on the couch not too much later with His cock in my mouth. I love listening to Him moan quietly while I’m sucking on Him. In between heavy breathing, He asked where He should cum and I asked Him where He wanted to. He stood up and I was on my knees again with His cock in my mouth. We had both been wanting Him to cum on my face, and now seemed like a great time to try it together. He took His cock out of my mouth and stroked Himself until He came all over my mouth and chin. I had to wipe some of it up with my fingers to swallow it and, of course, some it got on my shirt. πŸ˜‰ It was definitely a little more on the messy side, but I think it was a good first facial and I’m glad it was with Him.

I know it’ll be awhile before I see Him again. It probably won’t be for at least another week unless something magical works itself out. I do miss Him already, as I usually do. He’s off on a little trip right now for the next few days, which is always bittersweet for me. I love that He’s having fun and enjoying Himself, but I do miss getting to hear from Him more often. Of course if He’s reading this, or ever reads it, He’s probably thinking:

Oh, well. I guess that’s the story of my life. Or at the very least a chapter. πŸ™‚

Sweet Snowy Day ❄️

Today was a snowy day here where I’m at and it was a wonderful one. I had some time with my Master this morning and, as usual, it was amazing. I grabbed some breakfast for us on the way to his house where we laid around all morning, playing with the dog and me giving him a massage. It was nice just to spend some time with him. πŸ™‚

I’m always just slightly torn on days like these. It is beyond wonderful that we can enjoy each other’s company without always having to have sex. It makes me feel as though our relationship isn’t just one dimensional and we can be/are connected on other levels. However, I always want to feel like I’m making the most of our time together because it is a little limited. I would’ve loved to have fucked him today. Especially after that teasing stunt he pulled on me the other day by not letting me suck his cock…he knows how mean that was. πŸ™‚

After I left his snowy home and made it back to my own, I couldn’t help but to smile and reflect back on our time together. My only regret being that he didn’t take me by the hand and lead me to his spare bedroom in the basement where we sometimes play…

He actually will be getting back to work here next week. Kind of excited for that in one sense because I will be seeing him a little bit there. It will be interesting and exciting to pretend not to know him and to have to maintain a professional relationship with him in that setting. πŸ™‚ More on that later!

I hope you all had as good of a day as I did! πŸ™‚


What it’s like when worlds collide…

As I was coming up with the title for this post, all I could think about was this song from 1999:

I used to think I was so cool listening to this song in middle school and going into high school. So much angst and thinking I was SO hardcore… Completely hilarious now.

Anywho…..today’s post is about my two worlds colliding together. I have one life that everyone knows about about: my fiance and I grocery shopping together, my friends and I meeting for lunches or game nights, my family coming out for a visit. My normal life. These things are all publicly acknowledged, documented even through social media and memories that are allowed to be shared.

Then there is my other life; my secret one. The one where I have a boyfriend who is my Master. I don’t share with anyone how we sit and talk about movies, or how he fucks me hard in my bed or his guest bed, or how he colors a picture and I rub his back, or how he slaps me and turns both of us on. It is a complicated thing that we have. I wouldn’t trade it for anything. It can be difficult not to share these things about him; my feelings and experiences I mean. But in a strange way, it makes what we have more special because it truly is just between he and I. And, of course, anyone reading this blog right now. πŸ™‚ I’d be lying a little if I were to say that I didn’t care if we never were more than this. I know realistically it won’t happen, but I sure can dream about it, and it is a lovely dream.

I think this picture is important and significant, to me at least, because it shows both of my worlds intertwined. On the right I have my engagement ring. Of course it’s important to me, as is my fiance. I do love him, just as my Master loves his wife. On the left I have my collar, complete with an inscription from my Master. I also love him and he is important to me as well. I’m happy to wear both of these pieces of jewelry. It is interesting with the collar though because I don’t know that many people know what it is exactly. I had someone compliment it just the other day at the store, but I’m certain she just thought it was a necklace. πŸ™‚ It’s exciting to be wearing something in public that represents his ownership of me. I like knowing that I’m his, and he is mine. I know that he will never fully be mine, but I like knowing that it is just he and I with this secret. We share something special and I feel like he and I are getting the best of both worlds right now: we each have our normal lives that we get to enjoy, but then we also get to enjoy our other life together. One of my favorite things about him is when he talks about our future together. I know I’m probably thinking about this a little much like a regular relationship, but its not that far off. I know he feels this way too based on our conversations about it. I trust him. Very much. The advantage he and I have is the complete honesty and trust we have together. So many relationships, including each of our primary relationships, don’t have the same level of honesty and while I’m sure we both trust our significant others strongly, he and I share a different kind of trust.

I can only hope that other subs/girls have what I have. The sub role is obviously still slightly new to me. He and I are both still learning together and even though I refer to him mostly as my Master in this blog, I do still see him more as a boyfriend majority of the time. I think if our schedules allowed for us to have more time together, exploring these roles would be different. Right now, we only have so much time together in these 2-4 hour blocks of time and we try to fit in as much as we can: normal couple things like cuddling, having something to eat (other than his fucking delicious cock), back rubs for him while we mindlessly chat. Most of the time we manage to get a good fuck session in though too…Like yesterday.

Before he left yesterday, we made our way to my bed where we played with our gag for the first time (that will be another post…). He tied it around my head and shoved me onto my back in bed. After a few slaps on my already wet pussy, like in this sexy gif I found:

beautiful pussy

As I was moaning with my gag in my mouth, he was teasing me like crazy; asking “Is there something you’re trying to say? Do you need something?” It was driving me crazy….Then he crawled on top of me, his mouth on my pussy and moving his cock against my lips. I kept trying to get my tongue out to taste his precum, but I could only do so much with my gag on. Finally after teasing me for what felt like forever, he slid off me and walked around the bed so he could crawl back on top of me to fuck me with that hard cock of his. Looking into his eyes with the gag in my mouth and feeling him fill me with cum was so fucking hot and sexy. He is just absolutely amazing and I can’t wait for my next date with him.

I’ve really gotten off track here in this post. There are many things I want to go back to because I feel they deserve a post of their own, so I’ll get on that. But to wrap things up, I really do have two amazing lives that I get the pleasure of living. I’m happy to have them both and don’t want to lose either anytime soon.


Decisions, Decisions…

Life is just full of them! For example, today my Master and I decided to meet for breakfast. πŸ™‚ I love that we can do things like that and have a relationship outside of the bedroom. It is a different dynamic, but just as exciting to be with him. I like that we can have a completely normal, public friendly conversation and then switch over to me showing him some stats on this blog. I like that he’s interested in reading my posts and listening to my thoughts. I like discussing things with him as well as sharing these thoughts with other readers like you. I get to share this secret I have while remaining anonymous. I love it! πŸ™‚

So today he read my most recent post. I haven’t heard what he thought of it yet because our conversation took another turn… The other day when we were together in bed, he gave me a couple loud and slightly hard slaps on my ass, as well as sucked and nibbled just under my breast and he joked about that possibly leaving a mark for my fiance to see… We both are very turned on by him leaving marks on me, but we both have to be careful with that because of our significant others. Marks can be hard to explain… πŸ™‚

We have plans to get together again tomorrow and we were talking about maybe him leaving a mark on me somewhere. The thought is exciting and makes my heart race to think about him being rough and literally leaving his mark on me. We both know I’m his little slut to mark up. πŸ˜‰

So just a bit ago he and I were talking about where to leave a mark for tomorrow. He had a very interesting idea to put up a poll for anyone reading this article and I loved it! I’m averaging about 10 visitors a day right now, which I don’t think is actually so bad! So if you have made it this far in the post, please go ahead and vote below in my poll on where he should leave a mark on me tomorrow… πŸ™‚


And just like that…

…another day has come and gone with him! It was wonderful to see him today. I got him for about four and a half hours today, for which I’m very grateful!

We made it back to his house together and sat around in the living room playing with the dog for awhile before slipping down to the basement. It was very nice just sitting there with him, enjoying the company each of us has to offer. πŸ™‚

Once we made it to the basement though, we had our clothes off and were in bed fairly quickly. But we were able to take our time in bed together, which was amazing. Feeling his tongue on mine, his hand slapping my ass and my arms around him was perfect. He helped me to cum first, giving me permission, rubbing my clit while I moved my hips against his hand. Very quickly I could feel my legs beginning to shake and I came hard for him. We laid there kissing and holding each other and it was incredible…I can never get enough of him. His cock was so hard and he had me flip over on my knees with my ass up so he could give me a more proper spanking. I love feeling and hearing it when he does…after that I had to pull down the covers and take him in my mouth. I love feeling his cock glide down my throat, my tongue moving against him, my lips wrapped around him, hearing him moan softly when I take him deep in my throat…it turns me on like crazy. Not long after I started sucking him, he pulled on my legs to rearrange me so my pussy was right in his face. Feeling his tongue on me drove me wild and all I wanted was to make him cum like he did for me. I loved moving my lips and tongue faster on him until I could hear him moan and pant a little and then feeling him shoot all his cum in my mouth…it was very sexy and fun and intimate!

Then we just laid there, talking and laughing and kissing for the next couple hours. I love getting time with him to just talk. He’s wonderful to talk to and a great conversationalist. He’s funny and smart and quick witted. Even writing this now I can’t help but to smile thinking about him laying there with me, both of us laughing at something silly. πŸ™‚

I saw this awhile ago on Tumblr and had saved it, before I even met him I think. But going back through saved posts earlier today from boredom, this describes him quite well for me. While we are dangerous for each other, I believe this risk is worth the reward, as I think he does too. I’m finding out a lot about myself through this relationship we have. I never anticipated anything like this happening and sometimes I think my feelings are too much, but I can’t help it.

Most of the time I’m too busy thinking about the future: what’s going to happen, what could happen, what I want to happen. Or I’m dwelling on the past, feeling the low from the high I just had, wondering why it had to end. But today felt a little different for some reason. I still have the same sad feeling I always do when he and I part ways, but today it was less so. And even talking to him today about what our summer will look like when we won’t be able to see each other as much was sad, but still made me feel better because it means there is a future of some sort. Or the thought of one at least. So I’ll end here, on a somewhat happy note. All I have in my head now is the closing monologue that Kevin Spacey gives in American Beauty as Lester Burnham. I’ll save that for another day, but this closing gif will do.


Is it Tuesday yet??

So tomorrow is the first time I’ll be seeing my Master since just after Christmas (hopefully anyway!) and I can’t wait!

It’s a tough choice because I want Him to immediately take me into bed to spank, choke and fuck me hard until we both cum. But I also just want to hug and kiss Him and hear about how life has been going for Him while getting lost in His eyes. I’m not sure where we’re meeting just yet because of some recent changes in His household, but I really don’t care where we meet. Just thinking about Him right now gives me butterflies and gets me incredibly excited and turned on…

I came across this quote earlier and liked it very much:

His face immediately comes to mind. Feeling His hand tightly on my neck while He kisses my cheek softly before slapping it turns me on like crazy. Staring into His eyes and seeing this almost lustful smirk because He knows how much we both want this. I have very little willpower when it comes to Him. I just can’t help it!! Not that I’ve ever really tried, I suppose…Nor do I think I want to! I enjoy the power He has over me. I don’t know if He truly knows what He does to me in so many ways.

So after seeing that quote, I went on a little Google search and came across a site that had a few more that I liked, including this one (probably because that is what I googled lol):

This crosses my mind almost every time He tells me to do something when we’re in bed. I almost want to defy Him just so he has a ‘reason’ to punish me because I know that’s what we both really want. But it’s so hard to do that when I already want to do what he tells me. Maybe that’s just because I’m a dirty slut…who can say for sure? πŸ™‚

Click here to see the rest of them if you feel so inclined. πŸ™‚ I liked all of them for one reason or another, but these stuck out to me today.

I wish anyone reading this sexy thoughts. Hopefully you’ll all be as lucky as I will be tomorrow… πŸ˜‰

Did you know I’m utterly insane?

Okay, maybe not really. But that is one of my favorite lines from American Psycho, which I watched today. I still haven’t managed to read the book yet, which I’ve heard is better of course. Another quote I enjoy is:

There is an idea of a Patrick Bateman, some kind of abstraction, but there is no real me, only an entity, something illusory, and though I can hide my cold gaze and you can shake my hand and feel flesh gripping yours and maybe you can even sense our lifestyles are probably comparable: I simply am not there.

The opening scene always reminded me of the opening for Mommie Dearest where we watch Joan Crawford’s extensive and grueling morning routine. Both of these are opening scenes which I very much enjoy. One difference is the narration that Patrick Bateman gives us; he lets the audience get just under the surface of his thoughts.

I feel like this is how we all are. People have the idea of what we are, what we portray ourselves as. When I walk into the grocery store or around the mall, people don’t know that I have both a fiancΓ© and a boyfriend. They can’t tell that I love to be bent over, slapped and fucked by my Master. Or how I love when he chokes me and pulls on my hair. They see the ‘me’ that I want them to see: a decent, respectable woman wearing mostly modest clothing. They don’t see the remote vibrator I have on in my panties that my Master is controlling. What would they think if they did know? Would they say something if they knew? Would they be jealous or disgusted or perhaps sexually excited and ready to get home to their own partner to play? It’s hard to say…

People like to say they’re open, but when push comes to shove, I don’t think most are. When I talk to my friends about sex, which is rare because most of them are too uptight about that kind of thing, a simple blow job is risquΓ©. I could only imagine what they would think or say if I told them what I was doing in bed with Him every time we had sex. There might be a few friends that would be a little less close with me…

I think I like this movie so much because even though Patrick Bateman’s secret is that he is a cold blooded killer, the secret could be anything really. We all smile and nod at others and when someone asks how we are, we say “I’m fine” or “Doing alright”, but there are times when I’d like to say “Honestly, I’m doing terrible. I’m so horny and can’t wait to be fucked by my Master again. See this collar he bought for me? I touch it quite often throughout the day and think of him. In many ways.” But I can’t say that out loud, so I won’t. Instead I’ll come here and vent to myself or whoever else ends up reading this. πŸ™‚

My parting gift to you:

Can’t tell if that gif will play or not, but he sure does look happy. πŸ˜‰

Farewell, readers!

Tied up in decisions…

So recently I’ve been slightly obsessed with the idea of being tied up. My Master and I have discussed it and are both interested in doing this. Being that I’m fairly new to this and needing to be discreet about it (there should be little evidence left on my person), I’ve been doing a lot of research. I’m leaning towards these that I found online:

Very basic and cheap. Satin material to hopefully have a lower risk of leaving marks. I haven’t made the purchase yet as I want to be sure I’m making a good decision. There are a couple of these sashes in a pack when ordered, so there can be a couple used as restraints and one as a blindfold possibly, which I like.

I’m mostly curious to anyone that is reading this: have you experimented with different restraints? What material were they made of? How long did you have them on for? In what position were you restrained in? I’m thinking that starting off with something more comfortable would be the best way to go and then work our way up from there. I’ve been blindfolded before and tied up a couple times, but never for any real length of time, nor with anything I couldn’t get out of. The trust is there that if I needed to be free for a safety or comfort reason, of course He would oblige. Once this purchase has been made and we have had a chance to play, I’ll certainly be reporting back!

Please don’t be shy! If you happen to stop by on this post, let me know your thoughts and/or experiences with this! πŸ™‚