Welcome back, me! A month later to the day since my last post lol. And here I thought I was going to be getting more disciplined about writing here…. 🙂 Anyways, I’ve been seeing this alphabet kind of thing going around on some of the other blogs I follow. I think it’ll be a good way to get me to write more. I’m planning on shooting for a post maybe a few times a week so it doesn’t take me a year to finish the alphabet. 🙂 So, without any further ado…
I decided to choose the word ‘acceptance’ for my ‘A’ meaning for a few reasons. One of the most obvious ones, to me anyways, is the acceptance of who we all are sexually. When I met my Master, we shared many things with each other in terms of what we like or are interested in sexually. I think that’s the beauty in a way of talking to random people on the internet. You really do see that no topic is really off limits because if you decide to never to talk to that person again, you don’t have to! Fortunately for me, he decided to keep talking to me, even after he got to know me, which is shocking all on its own. 😉 He and I have very similar interests in what we like/want to try sexually and have more than once gone over what our limits are. He’s never judged me for what I like or have wanted to try or have already tried. We often have other conversations just about how every person is different and should do what works for them.
A second reason I chose this word is because he just plainly accepts me for me. I know I’m a crazy person who’s in another serious relationship. I’m not that smart, nor that pretty. As a matter of fact, I have absolutely no idea what he even sees in me at all. But he must see something because if he didn’t, I would assume he just would stop interacting with me. 🙂 That, or he just wants his books back…. 😉 I don’t know if he remembers this comment at all, but there was once awhile back that he said maybe we were kindred spirits. Maybe this was him joking or just being nice, but it meant something to me. That I’m just as much his as he is mine. We have a mutual understanding, respect and acceptance of each other. There’s not much else you can ask from another person.
I honestly have been contemplating this post for awhile, thinking about what words I wanted to choose for the first few letters of the alphabet. It is interesting today that he and I had a conversation last night/this morning about what it is going to be like when we can’t see each other any longer. It’s a sad thought for me, and he agreed it would be sad and said he tries not to dwell on these thoughts and just take today for what it is because wondering/worrying about tomorrow is a waste of time. After talking to him about future meetings (next week hopefully!!), I’m really going to try focusing on doing just that. I imagine it’ll be a bit difficult for me, as my mind tends to skip steps while running down the stairs. 🙂 But then again, he knows this about and still loves me anyways, as I love him. When this is over, which is hopefully not any time soon, I’ll sadly accept it while still being grateful for every single moment I had with him.
I was looking around online to find some kind of cliche quote to say what I want to say, only better. I found a few I liked, but then I saw this list and just decided to link it here instead. Take a look and see if there are any that you like. 🙂
But for now, just as my loving Master says, worrying today about tomorrow is not time well spent. I’d rather spend the time thinking about hiking with him, cleaning along his side and being bent over, fucked hard and rough by him…. This…this fate I happily accept. 😉
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